Well... Yesterday is the end of my relationship with Cheryl.
Yes blame me... I am the evil one who break her heart.
I never thought I would do this to her...
I never wanted the relationship to end but I was pushed to the edge.
I know keeping a long distance relationship is hard but I did it.
I took the relationship cz I feel in love actually with someone that loved me back.
I cant say that our relationship was strong I was always frustrated.
Frustrated by what she say and frustrated by her mood which change so fast.
I cant say that she is a bad girlfriend she is always there for me and support me.
I do whatever I can do keep the relationship... hide my anger and just go with the flow too keep her happy.
Always thought she would be happy, That is the only thing I can do for her I guess.
Problem is I just know I was never really good at making her happy.
Realised that her mood change is my problem.. Aint that a kick in the head?
Hell's yea! I just dont know how to please her. It seem what I do is never enough
worst I can be there like physically for her.
No doubt I kept my faith and hopes up. Still tryin to do what I do to keep her in check.
Till sunday morning I got a text from her sayin "I'm breaking up with you."
My heart shattered in to pieces. I was confused... All she tell me is I didnt send it. Then she is off to her school's carnival. I did not text her... thinking maybe I should give her space. Till about 4 she text me sayin that I dont even bother about her and I dont care. It just push me over the edge. I am still worked up about the unknown text and I thought there is a logical explanation for it.
Then she is like so what now... I told her.. If its me I only got one thing in my mind now and you wont like it. I want your answer maybe you can give me a hope that
you still want me. She knows what my answer is gonna be yet she want me to say it...
So i just did.
Yes I lost the one I truly love with all my heart... but I have no choice.
I just cant take it anymore I have to do it. I am truly sorry that I hurt her.
I know sorry cant cure it but that is all I can say. Still believe it or not
I still love her and I hope she can still be a friend to me.
Sadly so far... its just cold...
Now I am done shedding my tears. I have said all I want to...
I wish her all the best... Thanks for being my first girl friend.
You have been great guess I am the one loosing faith
Cheers to the relationship we ones had.
Monday, July 6, 2009
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Respects to Michael Jackson...
It was about 8 in the morning when I received a phone call from my buddy Afeez.
I was blur later shock by what he told me. He said "Hey man Michael Jackson died!".
I was completely shock.
I liked him ever since I was a lil kid... Love The Jackson 5 song "ABC" and I just love all of MJ's singles. He introduces us the moon walk, the gloves, the red jacket and so much more. He is a true performer and no words can describe his greatness I guess legend will be an understatement. He was about to make his come back and I say it will be the greatest come back ever but sadly he never made it.
Sad but true he has passed on but we will never forget what he had done to the world and he will always live in our hearts!
Rest In Peace Michael Joseph Jackson! We love you!
There was another death it was the original Charlie's Angels Farrah Fawcett.
She died of cancer at 9:30 a.m. in a Santa Monica hospital.
I was a fan of her too after Star World started playin Charlie's Angels minisods.
Well may Farrah Fawcett Rest In Peace.
Ps: Life is short and we will never know when death in near. Make the best of life.
I was blur later shock by what he told me. He said "Hey man Michael Jackson died!".
I was completely shock.
I liked him ever since I was a lil kid... Love The Jackson 5 song "ABC" and I just love all of MJ's singles. He introduces us the moon walk, the gloves, the red jacket and so much more. He is a true performer and no words can describe his greatness I guess legend will be an understatement. He was about to make his come back and I say it will be the greatest come back ever but sadly he never made it.
Sad but true he has passed on but we will never forget what he had done to the world and he will always live in our hearts!
Rest In Peace Michael Joseph Jackson! We love you!
There was another death it was the original Charlie's Angels Farrah Fawcett.
She died of cancer at 9:30 a.m. in a Santa Monica hospital.
I was a fan of her too after Star World started playin Charlie's Angels minisods.
Well may Farrah Fawcett Rest In Peace.
Ps: Life is short and we will never know when death in near. Make the best of life.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Wii! Day [Random] out!
First of all I feel like I live in a nut shell you know...
Not going out and chill with my friends and stuff... damn!
I even have the worse sense of direction around Penang...
Work work work is all I do. I should have posted this like ages ago.
Work is holidng me back.. worst of all I dont even get paid!
Nvm that... This post may contain lots of bitchin and you will realise how much I suck.
The day was Friday... 5/6/2009
I woke up at around 9... Work time!
I had to carry 20 boxes 50kg cabinets and 4 tables to some office lot in Equatorial Hotel. With help from a lorry guy and a trolley. Damn it was a pain. I got back and vomited cz I was using too much energy. Yes yes... I got a weak stamina but seriously it was tough. About 12noon I took a shower and ate a bowl of noodles. At 12.45pm with the worst sense of direction I drove to Gurney to meet up with Cheryl… Oh have I told you I have not been to gurney and I never knew there was a new wing… Yea. Now you know.
So It took me an hour to get to Gurney traffic was bad. So at about 1.50pm I called Cheryl to ask how do I find a parking! Then I drove around and finally found a parking spot! Get out of the car and it was about 2.10pm meet up with Cheryl and walked to a pool/snooker place called Mega Que. There I saw Sally and Eileen and Senny? The rest I can't recognise.. Well guess they don’t know me too so its all good!
After a few min of watching Sally and Eileen having a pool battle [Now swimming] Cheryl and I decided to have a walk around as Mega Que was ice cold! We walk and talk and end up in “toys r’ us” in search of Elmo! What we did at “toys r’ us” stays in “toys r’ us”. Hehe
After that we went back to Mega Que, Eileen won the pool battle and we went McD.
Cheryl had a Happy Meal! Got B.O.B as a free toy! The girls started eyeing for hot guys and laughing at how ppl walk and how weird ppl’s legs are…. Guess it’s a girls thing. Hahaha… Minutes later Cheryl got a call for an unknown number and it turns out to be Mei Rei. As Rei walk’s in to McD it went a lil quiet… Sally and Eileen went to find their other friends I guess.
After eating, Rei, Cheryl and I walk and talk and get to know each other. Cheryl told Rei about me not knowing that Gurney has extended and that I have not been to Gurney since it was extended. Rei thinks I am weird for that… hahaha. Well what to do when your dad is your boss. Cheryl had to get Sally and Eileen back to her grand ma’s place so she left Rei and I to so call “bond”.
So Rei decided to give me a tour around Gurney. It was enjoyable since she is very easy to talk to. We went up to the roof and climb around like crazy. Then we talk about her boyfriend and stuff. Rei and I went to “toys r’ us” to show me the rose thingy that she wanted her bf to give her. XD She is like "You should get Cheryl something like that." Then she say why not call Cheryl to say you love her and I did. Hahaha… Oh yea and I bumped in to Wayne and had a lil chat! XD
Cheryl came back and we went to Breeks to have a drink and talk. We had some random and funny talk. XD After drinking we went to the playground acted like silly kids. Cheryl and Rei climbed a tree and much random stuff.
Rei had to visit her neighbour who is ill in the hospital she Cheryl and I decided to walk her there… Funny Rei have to scream every time we cross the road… haha.
We left Rei to visit her friend and we talk back to Gurney… Sadly Cheryl’s parents are back and she had to leave…
So a good bye XoXo ends the day.
Not going out and chill with my friends and stuff... damn!
I even have the worse sense of direction around Penang...
Work work work is all I do. I should have posted this like ages ago.
Work is holidng me back.. worst of all I dont even get paid!
Nvm that... This post may contain lots of bitchin and you will realise how much I suck.
The day was Friday... 5/6/2009
I woke up at around 9... Work time!
I had to carry 20 boxes 50kg cabinets and 4 tables to some office lot in Equatorial Hotel. With help from a lorry guy and a trolley. Damn it was a pain. I got back and vomited cz I was using too much energy. Yes yes... I got a weak stamina but seriously it was tough. About 12noon I took a shower and ate a bowl of noodles. At 12.45pm with the worst sense of direction I drove to Gurney to meet up with Cheryl… Oh have I told you I have not been to gurney and I never knew there was a new wing… Yea. Now you know.
So It took me an hour to get to Gurney traffic was bad. So at about 1.50pm I called Cheryl to ask how do I find a parking! Then I drove around and finally found a parking spot! Get out of the car and it was about 2.10pm meet up with Cheryl and walked to a pool/snooker place called Mega Que. There I saw Sally and Eileen and Senny? The rest I can't recognise.. Well guess they don’t know me too so its all good!
After a few min of watching Sally and Eileen having a pool battle [Now swimming] Cheryl and I decided to have a walk around as Mega Que was ice cold! We walk and talk and end up in “toys r’ us” in search of Elmo! What we did at “toys r’ us” stays in “toys r’ us”. Hehe
After that we went back to Mega Que, Eileen won the pool battle and we went McD.
Cheryl had a Happy Meal! Got B.O.B as a free toy! The girls started eyeing for hot guys and laughing at how ppl walk and how weird ppl’s legs are…. Guess it’s a girls thing. Hahaha… Minutes later Cheryl got a call for an unknown number and it turns out to be Mei Rei. As Rei walk’s in to McD it went a lil quiet… Sally and Eileen went to find their other friends I guess.
After eating, Rei, Cheryl and I walk and talk and get to know each other. Cheryl told Rei about me not knowing that Gurney has extended and that I have not been to Gurney since it was extended. Rei thinks I am weird for that… hahaha. Well what to do when your dad is your boss. Cheryl had to get Sally and Eileen back to her grand ma’s place so she left Rei and I to so call “bond”.
So Rei decided to give me a tour around Gurney. It was enjoyable since she is very easy to talk to. We went up to the roof and climb around like crazy. Then we talk about her boyfriend and stuff. Rei and I went to “toys r’ us” to show me the rose thingy that she wanted her bf to give her. XD She is like "You should get Cheryl something like that." Then she say why not call Cheryl to say you love her and I did. Hahaha… Oh yea and I bumped in to Wayne and had a lil chat! XD
Cheryl came back and we went to Breeks to have a drink and talk. We had some random and funny talk. XD After drinking we went to the playground acted like silly kids. Cheryl and Rei climbed a tree and much random stuff.
Rei had to visit her neighbour who is ill in the hospital she Cheryl and I decided to walk her there… Funny Rei have to scream every time we cross the road… haha.
We left Rei to visit her friend and we talk back to Gurney… Sadly Cheryl’s parents are back and she had to leave…
So a good bye XoXo ends the day.
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Happy Birthday Baby Girl!!!
Today is a special day for someone because that some on is turning 15 today!
So I would like to wish that someone… Which is my baby girl Lam Cheryl a
very Happy Birthday! *hugs and kisses. =]
First of all I would like to say I am so sorry for not being there for you in such a
special day… believe me if I could I totally would. Now the next thing will make
people think that you have a jerk boyfriend but sorry I didn’t get you anything.
Well maybe when you come back? =]
Now that I have cleared that, I just want to tell you how special you really are to me.
I have known you for more then a year now but if feels like I known you for ages now. I love the fact that we can talk so openly and freely about almost anything.
You are like an angel to me… accepting me for who I am. I know most people wont.
Hahaha… There is nothing more that I could ask for in a girl. Yes nothing is perfect and we sure have our ups and downs but I love it when we can rationally talk it off. Last but not least, to me you are a beautiful person on the outside and in the inside. I really don’t bother if some random person pops up and say that you are fat and ugly or anything that makes you feel bad because who cares what they say. They are no one to judge they don’t know you like I do.
There is just so much I feel about you but I cant put this feeling in to words.
All I can say now is I love you and I always do! Happy Birthday. =]
So I would like to wish that someone… Which is my baby girl Lam Cheryl a
very Happy Birthday! *hugs and kisses. =]
First of all I would like to say I am so sorry for not being there for you in such a
special day… believe me if I could I totally would. Now the next thing will make
people think that you have a jerk boyfriend but sorry I didn’t get you anything.
Well maybe when you come back? =]
Now that I have cleared that, I just want to tell you how special you really are to me.
I have known you for more then a year now but if feels like I known you for ages now. I love the fact that we can talk so openly and freely about almost anything.
You are like an angel to me… accepting me for who I am. I know most people wont.
Hahaha… There is nothing more that I could ask for in a girl. Yes nothing is perfect and we sure have our ups and downs but I love it when we can rationally talk it off. Last but not least, to me you are a beautiful person on the outside and in the inside. I really don’t bother if some random person pops up and say that you are fat and ugly or anything that makes you feel bad because who cares what they say. They are no one to judge they don’t know you like I do.
There is just so much I feel about you but I cant put this feeling in to words.
All I can say now is I love you and I always do! Happy Birthday. =]
Sunday, May 10, 2009
40 Inspirational Speeches in 2 Minutes
It was featured on "Yahoo!" when this video first came out in Dec 2008.
Today I found it back and I want to share it with ya'll.
Its about not giving up the fight.
It can be about anything you want..
Cradits goes to the maker of the video.
TRANSCRIPT:
Shame on you. This could be the greatest night of our lives, but you're going to let it be the worst. And I guarantee a week won't go by in your life you won't regret walking out, letting them get the best of you. Well, I'm not going home. We've come too far! And I'm going to stay right here and fight for this lost cause. A day may come when the courage of men fails... but it is not THIS day. The line must be drawn HERE. This far, no further! I'm not saying it's going to be easy. You're going to work harder than you ever worked before. But that's fine, we'll just get tougher with it! If a person grits his teeth and shows real determination, failure is not an option. That's how winning is done! Believe me when I say we can break this army here, and win just one for the Gipper. But I say to you what every warrior has known since the beginning of time: you've got to get mad. I mean plum mad dog mean. If you would be free men, then you must fight to fulfill that promise! Let us cut out their living guts one inch at a time, and they will know what we can do! Let no man forget how menacing we are. We are lions! You're like a big bear, man! This is YOUR time! Seize the day, never surrender, victory or death... that's the Chicago Way! Who's with me? Clap! Clap! Don't let Tink die! Clap! Alright! Let's fly! And gentlemen in England now abed shall know my name is the Lord when I tell our enemies that they may take our lives, but they'll never take our Independence Day!
Today I found it back and I want to share it with ya'll.
Its about not giving up the fight.
It can be about anything you want..
Cradits goes to the maker of the video.
TRANSCRIPT:
Shame on you. This could be the greatest night of our lives, but you're going to let it be the worst. And I guarantee a week won't go by in your life you won't regret walking out, letting them get the best of you. Well, I'm not going home. We've come too far! And I'm going to stay right here and fight for this lost cause. A day may come when the courage of men fails... but it is not THIS day. The line must be drawn HERE. This far, no further! I'm not saying it's going to be easy. You're going to work harder than you ever worked before. But that's fine, we'll just get tougher with it! If a person grits his teeth and shows real determination, failure is not an option. That's how winning is done! Believe me when I say we can break this army here, and win just one for the Gipper. But I say to you what every warrior has known since the beginning of time: you've got to get mad. I mean plum mad dog mean. If you would be free men, then you must fight to fulfill that promise! Let us cut out their living guts one inch at a time, and they will know what we can do! Let no man forget how menacing we are. We are lions! You're like a big bear, man! This is YOUR time! Seize the day, never surrender, victory or death... that's the Chicago Way! Who's with me? Clap! Clap! Don't let Tink die! Clap! Alright! Let's fly! And gentlemen in England now abed shall know my name is the Lord when I tell our enemies that they may take our lives, but they'll never take our Independence Day!
Friday, May 8, 2009
Wear Sunscreen...
Alright... The title to this post may be weird but hang on.
As you all know... If anyone care to read my blog and my post
I like to post videos and my personal views on things that inspire me or
brings great meaning to me and to life.
Well its the same this post...
I recall there I heard a song which I heard in 1999 well its not much of a song its more like a speech turn it to one. Well that time I was too young to actually
know the truth about it and what it meant. Well now I search for it and listen to it and it gave me a huge inspiration! A lil history about it Wear Sunscreen or the Sunscreen Speech are the common names of an essay actually called "Advice, like youth, probably just wasted on the young" written by Mary Schmich and published in the Chicago Tribune as a column in 1997.
The most popular and well-known form of the essay is the successful music single released in 1999, credited to Baz Luhrmann.
Pay attention cz class is in session. Make sure you pay attention to every single word in this song and I mean every single word.
Lyrics:
Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of '99...
Wear Sunscreen
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experienceI will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.You're not as fat as you imagine.
Don't worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing everyday that scares you
Sing
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss
Don't waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behindthe race is long, and in the end, it's only with yourself.
Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your lifethe most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds know still don't.
Get plenty of calcium.
Be kind to your knees, you'll miss them when they're gone.
Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't, maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't, maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversarywhat ever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either your choices are half chance, so are everybody else's. Enjoy your body, use it every way you candon't be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it's the greatest instrument you'll ever own..
Danceeven if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.
Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.
Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents, you never know when they'll be gone for good.
Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography in lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you'll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.
Don't mess too much with your hair, or by the time it's 40, it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen...
As you all know... If anyone care to read my blog and my post
I like to post videos and my personal views on things that inspire me or
brings great meaning to me and to life.
Well its the same this post...
I recall there I heard a song which I heard in 1999 well its not much of a song its more like a speech turn it to one. Well that time I was too young to actually
know the truth about it and what it meant. Well now I search for it and listen to it and it gave me a huge inspiration! A lil history about it Wear Sunscreen or the Sunscreen Speech are the common names of an essay actually called "Advice, like youth, probably just wasted on the young" written by Mary Schmich and published in the Chicago Tribune as a column in 1997.
The most popular and well-known form of the essay is the successful music single released in 1999, credited to Baz Luhrmann.
Pay attention cz class is in session. Make sure you pay attention to every single word in this song and I mean every single word.
Lyrics:
Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of '99...
Wear Sunscreen
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experienceI will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.You're not as fat as you imagine.
Don't worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing everyday that scares you
Sing
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss
Don't waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behindthe race is long, and in the end, it's only with yourself.
Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your lifethe most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds know still don't.
Get plenty of calcium.
Be kind to your knees, you'll miss them when they're gone.
Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't, maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't, maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversarywhat ever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either your choices are half chance, so are everybody else's. Enjoy your body, use it every way you candon't be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it's the greatest instrument you'll ever own..
Danceeven if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.
Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.
Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents, you never know when they'll be gone for good.
Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography in lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you'll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.
Don't mess too much with your hair, or by the time it's 40, it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen...
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